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Posted by Mottis - March 19th, 2020

Alright so, I'll get this out of the way first: No, sadly this update has almost nothing to do with Bunnykill, nor will I most likely ever continue the series. Sorry to be so blunt, but I don't want to get your hopes up.

Anyway, I checked some comments on my last update recently. I can't believe there are still people out there leaving comments as recent as this year. I guess I should first apologize for just disappearing like the way I did. When I made the last post I just kinda left Newgrounds/animating behind and I didn't want to look back. I felt so relieved and even now, just thinking about Bunnykill gives me mixed, bittersweet feelings with a dose of anxiety. The final year that I spent working on those movies was not enjoyable, at all. After I stopped, I've been a lot more stress free and quite a few things has happened in my life, like getting a full time job, a drivers license and a car.

As for animating, I think I'll stay away like I've been doing. I've had some fleeting desires to get back to it but they're usually over before they even really start. Not to mention with an 40 hour work week, I'd have way less time to work on Flash movies than I used to.

I burned out really badly years ago but the scars are still there. I guess what causes me the most anxiety is how in the beginning animating was truly something I loved doing, I had a real passion for it. There was a spark of sorts and I was really good at it too. But I suppose I'm not the kind of person who can perform well under pressure and I still blame myself for not being up to the task. I feel guilty for stopping and leaving so many fans without a trace but at the same time I can't deny that I've been a lot happier ever since I did. Like I mentioned before; mixed, bittersweet feelings.

I'm quite happy with my life at this moment. I actually enjoy my work, and I make more money than I need. In the unlikely scenario I ever do decide to come back and work on animated movies, trust me you guys will be the first to know.

Anyway, I suppose this is a goodbye for now, a long overdue one. Thanks for all the love and support, I really do apreciate it even though I'm bad at showing it sometimes.




Posted by Mottis - May 1st, 2013

Well, it's been a while, huh? Sorry about that.

I guess I subconsiously decided to take a break from Newgrounds, animating and anything Bunnykill related and let me tell you... (here's the good news) I haven't been this relaxed for a long while. I have been more active in life and I'm currectly doing my best trying to get out of unemployment. My next goal is to get a driver's license and a car.

However, there's always the thought lingering, tucked deep in my head: "I need to get back to work, I need to keep working on Bunnykill, I need to, I have to, I must, there's no escape." No matter how long of a break I take, I can't shake the feeling of being "chained" like this. It's always there, causing anxiety and stress.

In addition to that, for the longest time now, working on Bk has no longer been fun, aside from a few rare brainstorming moments. The spark is simply... gone. Having to force myself to animate and then getting angry at myself because I couldn't finish even one kill today is not what I want from a hobby like this.

I think you know where I'm going with this. That's right... the bad news. I have slowly come to a realization; I cannot keep working on Bunnykill anymore. The stress that it causes is simply too much to bare. It is sad, yeah, but it's for the best. I'm sure you guys understand.

Now, Is this the end of my animating career? I sure hope not. Even though Bk no longer interests me, I have been playing around with flash, trying out fbf animation styles and doing other tests and I find it highly entertaining. So, stay tuned, who knows, maybe someday I release a completely new flash movie.

As for Bunnykill: a huge thanks to all my fans. It's been one hell of a ride <3
~Mott out


Posted by Mottis - December 28th, 2012

Sorry for the long break and the lack of updates. Also, thank you all for sending me so many supporting messages, they helped me a lot and I have been feeling somewhat better recently. Not much has happened in my life during the downtime and I'm sad to say I haven't worked on Bunnykill since my last update, but I might start working again soon. I might even stream it, if there are people who wanna watch.

I really can't think of anything else to say at this point so yeah, that's it for now. I just wanted you guys to know that I'm doing better ^^'


Posted by Mottis - August 15th, 2012

I apologize I haven't been updating my profile or answering comments lately. The truth is that I haven't worked on Bk at all since my last post. Why? Well, there's no easy way to say this so I'll just say it; I have been severely depressed for the past few months or so. At the moment I've lost any and all motivation to do... anything really, let alone something creative, such as animating.

I visited a psychiatrist and after a few visits I was prescribed some anti-depressant meds. We'll see how things go when/if those kick in. Should be a few weeks/a month, or so I was told. Oh, And just in the case you're wondering why I'm depressed... Well, It's just your average no-life nerd foreveralone stuff. You know how it goes, I'm sure.

So that's it for now. See ya when I feel better.

Posted by Mottis - July 16th, 2012

Alright, so I decided to make a new post since the old one started to get a bit cluttered.

I'll be streaming some more tomorrow, around 4-5pm cet, as usual. I couldn't solve the issue with the lousy microphone volume, so all I can really do is reduce the volume of the flash sounds instead and then it's up to the viewers to increase the overall volume on their speakers. Sorry ^^'

Stream; http://www.justin.tv/mottage

Streaming right now
Okay done for now. MAYBE gonna stream some more tomorrow (7.18.12) 4-5pm cet as usual.

Sorry for lack of updates. I've been feeling down lately and not in the mood for animating/streaming.

Posted by Mottis - July 3rd, 2012

Streaming right now;

EDIT: Done for now. Maybe more tomorrow. Thanks for watching! ^^

EDIT: I be streaming again. Feel free to join. (I really need to find a better way to update whenever I stream)
EDIT again : Scratch that. Flash is being super laggy while streaming today. Can't get anything done like this ;_;

EDIT: I just tested a few things and managed to make flash run smoother while streaming. I won't be able to stream today or tomorrow, but I'll try making some room for it on Sunday, most likely around 12:00 CET :)
EDIT: Sorry guys, I wont be able to stream today afterall, personal reasons. Let's try again tomorrow, same time ^^'

Streaming right now.
...Aaaaand done for now. MAYBE more tomorrow, around 3-4pm CET.

Streaming right now. Not sure for how long.
...and done. Thanks for watching ^^

I'll try to make sime time for streaming today. Most likely around 4-5pm CET.

Streaming right now.
...Done for now. Sorry I forgot to update my post when I started streaming, I'll try to remember next time. Also, I'll let the videos up for those who missed the stream and want to see them. I'll stream some more tomorrow (saturday) around 4-5pm cet. Ps, I just realized how absurdly loud the animation sounds are compared to my voice, I'll fix it next time.

Stream is gonna be late today. I'll go live in an hour or so. Ps. Sorry for the password. Just in case some of you were wondering; I was running some tests yesterday and i forgot to remove the password afterwards.

--EDIT ~ 7.14.12 --
So I guess I won't be streaming today. I bought a new mic because the old one was so quiet, but this one has the same problem. That means something else is causing it. I'm currently pulling my hair out trying to figure it out and not in the mood for streaming. Sorry.

Posted by Mottis - June 30th, 2012

Hey guys. I've been feeling really unmotivated and straight out depressed lately, so I haven't gotten much work done.

However, I decided that I'm going to give this streaming thing a try. Hopefully that'll cheer me up. Maybe I'll stream just some games at first as a test or something. However the problem is, I have no idea where to start. I know I want to stream on justin.tv, but I'm clueless as to what (free) program to use or how to set it up. So, basically, I'm asking for help here. If you know how to stream your desktop on Jtv, or know someone who could assist me to set it up, hit me up on skype. I would greatly appreciate the assistance. Thanks. :)

I decided to use Xsplit. Here's the link to the stream page:

I won't be streaming quite yet though, except maybe for testing purposes. However if you wish to follow me on Jtv so you get an email whenever I go live, you can do that beforehand ^^

Test run complete, things seem to be working just fine. Now all I need to do is gather enough courage to actually start streaming sometime in the near future :P

Posted by Mottis - May 28th, 2012

Diablo 3 has claimed my soul. Since the release, I have opened Flash MX only once and even then I couldn't get anything done.

...Sorry, guys. I have failed you all ; _ ;

Nah, but really, I needed a break. The '3 hours of animating a day' -system was killing me, and wasn't fun. Hopefully when I finally get burned out on DIII, or at least after I get over the worst addiction, I can get back to work. But for now, there's too many monsters to kill and too much loot to find.

As for the streaming idea, I kinda dropped it for now. I will look into it some more later, perhaps. We'll see.

I will try to animate a lil bit here and there, if I happen to get back into it.
Will keep you guys updated. Peace.

Posted by Mottis - May 9th, 2012

Well, I've been working hard on BK5.0 lately. Forcing myself to work at least 3 hours a day has been somewhat mentally challenging, even if I do take the weekends off, which I do. That being said, I have done quite a bit of progress. There's 6 new kills since my last update and right now I'm at a point where kills SHOULD start racking up even more quickly.

Also, here's a really random idea I have been throwing around in my head recently. Bear with me here: Live-streaming.
I've started to watch a lot of live-streams lately, Starcraft 2 and other gaming related ones mostly and I was thinking, would people like to watch me animate live? I'd be talking as I work, explain things, answer question in the chat, etc etc. I think it would be really good not only for the fans but for my motivation as well.

The only downside is that, as you guys should know at this point, I'm very secretive about my work. I want to spoil as little as possible untill the movie is actually released, however live-streaming would obviously give it all away.

So, I dunno. It's still up in the air so let me know what you guys think.

I got Diablo 3 yesterday so my productivity might be a bit low on the next few days, sorry!!

Posted by Mottis - April 26th, 2012

I've just finished with the intro for the Bunnykill 5 Prequel. Now, it might sound like nothing, however I just want to add that it's probably one of the most complicated and eventful scenes I've ever done. It contains all the characters, including the new one, and has a total of 6 kills already. It clocks at 2 and a half minutes long as well (!)

I really like how the new character turned out. I managed to make him look and move exactly as I imagined it in my head. He's probably my new favourite character altogether. I wish I could tell you more, but I like to keep things a secret so they have more of an impact the first time you see it yourself. I can't wait to hear what you think about him once the movie is released :)

Also, some more good news. I have recently decided to get into a completely new rhythm when it comes to animating. My new plan is to work 4 hours every day, non-stop. Even if I'm suffering from an artist's block, I will try to use that time to get at least something done. So far it's working pretty well ^^